Wow

Sometimes I really think I am psychic. I mean, I can think of a song, the most obscure song, one that I haven't heard on the radio in years and within a few days I hear it. The same goes with movies. My post last night was the same thing. I told you I could feel it brewing. Well it did. He left. He is on his way to an NA meeting, which I found out now they only offered NA or AA once a week. I would assume it would be every day but what do I know about rehab?

So I am nervous and happy. I am reserved and horny. I am confused and planning. I need to get in line with my subconscious. How? Who knows. I know I am not afraid. I cannot make him better. I cannot make him worse. I can make me better or worse. I cannot make him go to a meeting and I cannot make him go to work. I can make him fuck me, which I plan on doing.

I am not sad, I am not overjoyed. I am taking it one day at a time. I know there will be mixed reviews. I am mixed as well. I do feel that he has changed and I am not trying to sell it to you. I am not trying to sell it to myself. He is owning it, as Dr. Phil would say (not that I watch it but I have seen a really good impression of him that summed it up). So here I go, on to the next phase. At least I am getting laid!