Friday, September 21, 2007

Roses are red.

My old man turned 22 yesterday. I am estimating his mental age a little but we are definitely out of the teen age years. Sometimes I would put him closer to his actual age (34) but for the most part b/c of the fart jokes he is still in the early twenties. I am pleased to say that he is still employed and has twice cashed his checks without me and deposited them into my bank account without me. You must know what an accomplishment this is. I was even shown the check stubs! We are getting so responsible.
I was a little concerned b/c the deposit amount didn't match the check amount. I was waiting, deciding how to handle this when I was surprised with a dozen roses delivered to my work! I am in love.
So he was properly banged for his birthday.
I am swamped with school and work. I am debating on a major change (again!). I am never satisfied. Does anyone else go through this? Why are we defined by our careers? Ugh. I need a guidance counselor. Will I always go through this? How can a 20 year old person know exactly what they want to be? I am the only person in any of my classes that flip flops like this. Help!
I cannot decide if a job with actual money is worth the change. I am giving so much of myself away right now. I want to be fairly compensated for it. I currently make about $40-50k a year (depending on the market) and I don't want to work this damn hard only to make the same money. Is is wrong of me? I feel the pull of the legal field so strong and I want to do it. Help!!!!

8 comments:

joy said...

Happy birthday!

I always say that man-years are the opposite of dog years (divide by 7 instead of multiply).

joy said...

And where've you been, anyway, cf?

A.N. said...

I don't necessarily think it is wrong. I just think you need to be content and happy and satisfied in your job. And that is worth more than money. So if you are making the same but loving what you do, then that is fine. Happiness is more important.

Mary P Jones (MPJ) said...

Happy birthday to your man! And they say addicts stop growing mentally and emotionally around the age they start using, so...

BTW, I'm the queen of flip flopping. I always hate what I'm doing -- and if I love it (like blogging), I'm mostly not getting paid for it. Sigh!

Mantramine said...

I'm with MPJ- I would be of no assistance. If I'm not getting paid to sit around and write what I want to write- then I want to change it every month. I want to be a psych nurse, get my social work diploma, be a counsellor, work a dumb p/t job so I can be at home and write, stay at home mom/writer. Ug, it never ends.

Did I help? Should I scratch off counsellor?

woman.anonymous7 said...

About the law...I know many attorneys and all but one hate it. From what I understand there are a lot of rather tedious tasks associated with the day to day, and because competition for jobs is so tough you can easily find yourself on the wrong side of an issue that's important to you while you're trying to feed your family and pay back your loans.

Hope this 2nd hand insider perspective is helpful.

woman.anonymous7 said...

What I forgot to add (because I was so codependently drawn in by your request for help and felt sure I might save you from something!) is that making decisions based on the past (like other people's experiences) is limiting. Making decisions based upon a future you see and are excited by is a wonderful, powerful thing to do. If you truly feel drawn to the law, if you feel passion, if you think it would make you excited jump out of bed every day, then to hell with anybody elses experience! Their lack of passion for their profession is their issue, not yours.

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